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The Wild Edge of Love, Part 15
The Mess Continues
He is in contempt of court. So this week was about petitions for payment of bills unpaid, lawyers unpaid, and credit ratings repaired. It is amazing what a man on a mission can do. How a life can be ruined by one person who is not only careless, but malicious, as he wears a smile on his face and pretends to be amicable. And I am supposed to communicate with said man. As the father of my children, he spends some time with them. And it all so confusing. So much of what he acts like with them is not congruent with the way he is trying to ruin my life-their mother’s life. It’s as if he doesn’t realize that their lives are my life and vice versa. As a homeschool mom for many years, that is not a stretch. There is no separation from myself and my kids.
As an empath, I feel what they feel. And when they are confused, I feel it. I feel when they are overwhelmed as well. And that is a big feeling. I don’t often have the capacity to be with their big feelings when I have my own…thus they have a good therapist. And I do as well.
Why did my ex not put the kind of energy into creating a beautiful family as he is putting into destroying it? Is there no glory in having a happy, whole family? Sadly, it was never enough for him. He wanted to change the world. He wanted to make a lot of money doing it as well. He wanted to have fancy…
