Thank you, Zita! Yes, this was my life for over 25 years with my husband, whom I am still trying to finalize a divorce with. What a nightmare it has been; all the gaslighting and lies about being so in love with me. All the late nights trying to find out why I am so unhappy, so confused, feel like a bad person, like everything is my fault, when all I did was work my ass off for him night and day, raise our children and work 3 part time jobs trying to support him, all the while managing our property and hobby farm and homeschooling. His words and actions never matched and what I felt just added layer upon layer of confusion. Years and years of cognitive dissonance to a point of psychosomatic illness and constant pain were the result. Then, to fall in love with another narcissist in the rebound. One that was going to save me from the other. I am grateful for the lessons learned and glad it is all over..now to save my children from the lies and manipulation! Thanks again for your words. They are a difficult, but necessary, pill to swallow for those of us that are still reeling.