Lisa, I believe I am right there with you. Sometimes I just need a little rant to get it out of my system! Yeah, does it matter? Not if we don't want it to. Do I wish I were younger. No! do I wish I hadn't wasted almost 30 years on a man who didn't want me? Yes! But, aging is difficult, to be sure. I am grateful for the wisdom I have gained, grateful to have my children close, and grateful to have a companion in myself that is getting more secure by the day. We, as women, are all in different places, but I have a lot of hope for us.