Klara, Thank you. The anxiety and fear I have just keep feeding and feeding this feeling. I am still moving forward, ever so slowly. I am focusing on the good stuff and I want them so badly to be enough. But you get it...in the end they all feel like distractions from what I really want. It's a tough place to be. And yes, I do have a good man. We have some things to figure out, but he is good to me. I want that to be enough, too. Nothing is going to be perfect. Its such a hard process when you are so tired. Love to you!