Janey,

Thank you. These are the messages I need. I feel so lonely about it all. It’s not like I can go to my mom and ask her to go with me to my culposcopy. She’s totally not okay with me having sex at at 48 with a man i’m not married to (1 man, mind you, ugh…It’s not like my daughters would’t freak out if I told them. It’s silent. And so hard. I am a part-time pastor as well. And I feel like a hypocrite. It’s a lovely shame game right now going on in my head. This helps. Thank you. Sex-mad. I get that. I feel so constrained right now. It seems I’m either in a relationship with a man with a personality disorder and there is plenty of sex available (but I feel it’s manipulative power) or I’m with a man who doesn’t have much of a libido. It’s a weird world out here, in singledom. Not a fan, particularly. Again, I am super grateful for your sweet words. Thank you. It brings a measure of peace.