It's been a journey to detox my mind from all of that. I'm grateful to have the words now to decifer the confusion. I know better. And I always did. I just didn't ever have the support I needed to really sink in and enjoy it. I'm sad about that. But the kids and I both know I did my best. And they are kind enough to say so. I'm very very blessed by them. Now I just need my body to believe all of the good stuff is here, waiting for it to be noticed.