I’m so sorry! Funny how truth, even when it slaps you in the face, over and over, is still so hard to swallow. I considered divorcing my husband (talking to him about it here and there) for about a decade. I knew there was something wrong. I just had no idea what it was. That ambiguity was the death of my nervous system…always so hypervigilant, trying to protect myself and my children. I hope you have found your peace and your children are a beautiful part of your life!