I guess that’s it, though. We aren’t going to get our answers or our happy endings.

Yeah, that might be true. Sucks as it does, this one doesn't end happily. As much as we can hope, the next one might not as well. I am right there with you. Breaking wide open has allowed for a lot of growth, as much as I really didn't want it. And, it continues to, as I continue to sort through the mess of my marriage-all the "whys" and "hows"- and rebuild a life. Much love to you!