Reprogramming Myself Series

I Grew Out of My Big Girl Panties…

No more “just bucking it up” for me

Photo by Huha Inc. on Unsplash

Last week, I wrote an article about women’s bodies, depression, anxiety, transgenerational trauma and psychosomatic pain. I recently have been witness to many of my friends’ bodies starting to say “when”. They have tried to juggle too much for far too long. The struggle is not about victimhood, nor is it about helplessness.

I am not into platitudes, nor do I believe that my perspective is right. There is no such thing. I am just grateful to be able to process some of my pain around these topics in a place where others can read it, often identify it, and find words for their own grief. Medium has been great for me in that way. This article is one that I am writing in response to that one.

So often, after we have gone through something very difficult, we are told that we need to “get back in the saddle”, “buck it up and keep going”, that “when the going gets tough, the tough get going”.

Yes…And…There is more to the story than that.

I am so grateful not to deal with depression, suicidal ideation, or a life of unawareness around where my pain actually comes from. It took a long time to get here. But, I know where it comes from. It takes time to weed it out…