I feel like I could highlight this entire blog! This, however, was my life. Begging and begging for him to go get help for his depression (I already had a therapist snd many therapist friends). I don’t feel bad at all anymore, unlike you, but i know the feeling well. How men expect women to continue to be satisfied with a man who refuses to grow with them, adult with them, and love them as intensely as a long term relationship requires…I don’t know. But they do.