I dont' want to be there either. But, right now, I have no other choice. It's either my dad or the generous boyfriend. I am working as hard as I can, hoping to be in a good place in a few years and move back into my house. We shall see. Divorce landed me with all of the debt and none of the income...so we are starting from the bottom. But, there's room to grow, over time. I am sorry to hear about your sweet husband. You are a very blessed woman to have had that. And yet, the grief must have been more than impossible. Best wishes!