For some odd reason what I wrote to you yesterday did not post. Thank you for your wisdom. Having younger children makes sense of your situation. All of the life and energy they infuse your life with....needs a container like a country home. I love that you were able to return. For you and for them.
My children don't want to return. The divorce was too traumatizing and we were quite vulnerable there. I had to walk the road of restraining orders twice due to the ex and then the ex boyfriend. I'm not sure I'll ever feel safe there again.
But...im still trying to imagine another, 3rd option. There are sweet things about being in town. Good and caring people I never would have met, boards to sit on that try to make a difference. Lots of things I'd never have had time for with the farm. There is much to consider. I cannot imagine being here, in this area, for the rest of my life no matter. I want to start over somewhere else. A clean slate. I'll take me with me, but be able to leave behind places that are toxic and sadly, unredeemable.
Thanks again, my friend.